Full Moon

I remember a summer night in Budapest back in 2011. I was cycling through Margit bridge scanning the sky excited for the total lunar eclipse that day. Just a few people were standing on the bridge watching the moon. There were a few minutes until the eclipse begun so I cycled a little further to be on my own by the riverbank. The traffic just flew on endlessly. Probably most of the people did not even know about it, why would anyone look at the sky? I remember the feeling that struck me that evening – how disconnected we are from nature, from our ancestors. I felt alone in a city that didn’t care.

Full moon occurs every 4-5 weeks. Yet in Findhorn it is a time for meditation. A time for celebration, to light a fire and sing. A time for gratitude. It is our moon, one and only, and beautiful.

We forgot and lost so much of our heritage. Not knowing our roots we destroy and damage all that gave birth to us. Nature is dying and is in unbearable pain. Yes, pain. I understood this in the Amazon rain forest:  the true untouched wilderness is a living entity, full of life, full of spirits. You feel it’s presence when walking within. I never knew nature like that before. Planted forests, destroyed ecosystems, agricultural lands don’t carry spirits. They are raped slaves. They just stand there with pain yet with everlasting patience.

Pain. We all carry nature’s pain. And more and more of us are conscious of it. This is not a civilization of fulfillment. This is a civilization without past and without identity. This is a civilization that believes in growth and individuality. And here you have it, people enslaving themselves to be able to buy a little happiness. What we have lost is incredible. So far from nature. So far from each other.

Yet we all crave unity. The moments when we are all one. Alcohol will certainly break some of those barriers. But could you experience oneness day by day? Where does one tree end and the forest begin? Where does one person end and another begin? Where is my edge and where does nature begin?

I want to be of service in healing Mother Nature and our connection with it. In Findhorn I understood, that I’m the one who needs healing first.